Post by amberjaw on Jul 18, 2012 20:35:42 GMT -5
DON'T CRY OUT FOR GOD
we are all lambs to the slaughter now, don't worry it will be over
NAME amberjaw
CLAN shadowclan
POSITION warrior
GENDER female
AGE twenty-nine moons
APPEARANCE click, click, click.
CLAN shadowclan
POSITION warrior
GENDER female
AGE twenty-nine moons
APPEARANCE click, click, click.
HOLD ON THOUGH YOU'RE
alone i am there with you, that much at least i can promise, you know
LIKES autumn- for the cool and dry weather; her thick pelt; her own appearance; toms (sorta, it's complicated); being alone or with little company; birds- though not to eat! feathers are gross); blue eyes; evening; rational discussions; being understood; compliments (sorta- she's bad at reception but they really do melt her heart); hunting; proving her skill; honey; impressing others
DISLIKES spiders; training/mentoring; responsibility; being judged; young cats; being nagged; being social; everything (just kidding)
HOPES to learn to handle her responsibilites; to earn respect from her clanmates; to never be looked up to; to find a true best friend whom she can really talk with; to become less annoying
FEARS spiders; crushing on someone; being crushed on; being ignored; becoming a crappy role model for someone; pressure from loved ones; being unneeded
PERSONALITY amberjaw is... complicated, to say the least.
many things easily become a source of irritation for this she-cat, who has no shortage of pet peeves and annoyances, which keep her in a constantly prickly mood. the reasoning behind this, perhaps, is her slightly dramatic demeanor due to which she comes off as a rather petty lass, who gets fed up with the small things and blow up when these little things pile up. she's snappy, sure, but as mentioned, also a bit dramatic. she's not afraid to tell you the what-for if you're being stupid and pissing her off, and even when she's by herself she's got a silly habit of flipping out a little bit sometimes. sees a spider when walking the forest on her own? you'll probably hear a scream when you're sitting back at camp. don't worry though, it's just amberjaw having a little heart attack. that sort of thing is typical, and most of her clanmates have just learned to deal with it, or have a laugh at it. she doesn't mind when they make light of her peeves, since she doesn't do it for attention, it's just one of her weird overreactive quirks.
this she-cat, for the most part, doesn't like company. though she doesn't hate it, or particularly dislike her clanmates or anything like that, it's just that the presense of others makes her quite uncomfortable. in short, she's very introverted. though not exactly a shy cat, she rarely knows where to take a conversation, but feels forced to speak around others nonetheless, creating a bad habit of stuttering and babbling. being alone is easy, and making friends is hard. simple as that. however, amberjaw isn't exactly antisocial, she just finds socializing to be a challenge she rarely likes to partake in. still, she does desire a few close friends, because keeping everything bottled up to herself is tough, and she wants someone to tell jokes to and laugh wish.
amberjaw is, without a doubt, a complete worry-wart. she worries about almost everything, and sometimes this becomes less of a quirk and more of a knawing anxiety. however, she does her best to cool her jets and is doing her best to learn to let things go and relax. nevertheless, she worries about everything from if that itch on her back where she can't reach is actually a spider, to if that one group of clanmates whom she never speaks to that just left on patrol are ever gonna return, or if they've just left to meet their demise. so yes she's a little bit of a freak like that, but it's okay because she rarely voices these bizarre worries, but instead keeps them to herself. still, it makes her pretty jumpy. on top of irrational worries about others, she worries even more about herself. does she look stupid? did she just say something offensive? will any tom ever like her? if she gonna have to mentor some poor kid? do her clanmates think she's lazy? weird? dumb? ugly? and so on. amberjaw is an extremely self-conscious young lady, who, while isn't really self-loathing, is in a constant state of anxiety about herself, and how she comes off to others. this is perhaps the sole explanation for her distaste for mentoring, responsbilities, and so on- being a disappointment. of all the things she wishes to fix about herself, its this trait for it quickly becomes exhausting.
all of this worry may just as well come from her extreme passion and loyalty for her clans, and those around her. even if she's feeling inadequate and disliked in her clan, unacknowledged by those around her, she only wishes well for them. to the apprentice she just flipped out at because they flicked moss at her to the handsome tom who accidentally complimented her and really freaked her out. they all mean so much to poor amberjaw, who is truly a loving and passionate she-cat, who is only misguided in where she channels this energy. still, when push comes to shove it turns out this weird little lady would really and truly do anything for her clan, and because of this is a fierce fighter and talented hunter, and she pushes herself to be better every day. though she does not like to be ordered around, and she likes to do things on her own accord, amberjaw would never turn down and order, and jumps at the chance to impress others.
she really only wants to be liked, when it comes down to it, but she's scared of the pressure, and the constant need to impress, and live up to expectations, and so on. everything that comes with being a friend, or having loved ones. it's scary, and it makes amberjaw into a very sad cat. brooding, yes. frustrated, yes. lonely, yes. not always, but on her worst days, when she can't stop worrying and nitpicking, she becomes weighed down by her negative traits, and forgets that she's not ugly, hated, or half as annoying as she imagines. she yearns for friendship and companionship and compliments and all the nice things that come from being around other cats, but fears being a disappointment too much to put herself out there, and gets trapped in an internal duel where half of her wishes to jump into the conversation with a joke and a smile, and the other half is telling her that her clanmates will think her idiotic if she does. she's working on overcoming this, though, because she tires of being so lonely, despite her lone-wolf disposition.
probably the thing that her clanmates notice most of all about her besides the fact that they rarely see her around is her keen sense of observation, and skill in both tracking in hunting. though she would never guess this as she's far too busy hiding from said clanmates, her skill when it comes to agility in the forest and outspoken tactics and so on, is well-known due to her driven passion to be impressive. her tendency to freak out about things put aside, this tabby lass is fairly intelligent, and has been known to understand strategies and prove her worth with both fighting and hunting.
DISLIKES spiders; training/mentoring; responsibility; being judged; young cats; being nagged; being social; everything (just kidding)
HOPES to learn to handle her responsibilites; to earn respect from her clanmates; to never be looked up to; to find a true best friend whom she can really talk with; to become less annoying
FEARS spiders; crushing on someone; being crushed on; being ignored; becoming a crappy role model for someone; pressure from loved ones; being unneeded
PERSONALITY amberjaw is... complicated, to say the least.
many things easily become a source of irritation for this she-cat, who has no shortage of pet peeves and annoyances, which keep her in a constantly prickly mood. the reasoning behind this, perhaps, is her slightly dramatic demeanor due to which she comes off as a rather petty lass, who gets fed up with the small things and blow up when these little things pile up. she's snappy, sure, but as mentioned, also a bit dramatic. she's not afraid to tell you the what-for if you're being stupid and pissing her off, and even when she's by herself she's got a silly habit of flipping out a little bit sometimes. sees a spider when walking the forest on her own? you'll probably hear a scream when you're sitting back at camp. don't worry though, it's just amberjaw having a little heart attack. that sort of thing is typical, and most of her clanmates have just learned to deal with it, or have a laugh at it. she doesn't mind when they make light of her peeves, since she doesn't do it for attention, it's just one of her weird overreactive quirks.
this she-cat, for the most part, doesn't like company. though she doesn't hate it, or particularly dislike her clanmates or anything like that, it's just that the presense of others makes her quite uncomfortable. in short, she's very introverted. though not exactly a shy cat, she rarely knows where to take a conversation, but feels forced to speak around others nonetheless, creating a bad habit of stuttering and babbling. being alone is easy, and making friends is hard. simple as that. however, amberjaw isn't exactly antisocial, she just finds socializing to be a challenge she rarely likes to partake in. still, she does desire a few close friends, because keeping everything bottled up to herself is tough, and she wants someone to tell jokes to and laugh wish.
amberjaw is, without a doubt, a complete worry-wart. she worries about almost everything, and sometimes this becomes less of a quirk and more of a knawing anxiety. however, she does her best to cool her jets and is doing her best to learn to let things go and relax. nevertheless, she worries about everything from if that itch on her back where she can't reach is actually a spider, to if that one group of clanmates whom she never speaks to that just left on patrol are ever gonna return, or if they've just left to meet their demise. so yes she's a little bit of a freak like that, but it's okay because she rarely voices these bizarre worries, but instead keeps them to herself. still, it makes her pretty jumpy. on top of irrational worries about others, she worries even more about herself. does she look stupid? did she just say something offensive? will any tom ever like her? if she gonna have to mentor some poor kid? do her clanmates think she's lazy? weird? dumb? ugly? and so on. amberjaw is an extremely self-conscious young lady, who, while isn't really self-loathing, is in a constant state of anxiety about herself, and how she comes off to others. this is perhaps the sole explanation for her distaste for mentoring, responsbilities, and so on- being a disappointment. of all the things she wishes to fix about herself, its this trait for it quickly becomes exhausting.
all of this worry may just as well come from her extreme passion and loyalty for her clans, and those around her. even if she's feeling inadequate and disliked in her clan, unacknowledged by those around her, she only wishes well for them. to the apprentice she just flipped out at because they flicked moss at her to the handsome tom who accidentally complimented her and really freaked her out. they all mean so much to poor amberjaw, who is truly a loving and passionate she-cat, who is only misguided in where she channels this energy. still, when push comes to shove it turns out this weird little lady would really and truly do anything for her clan, and because of this is a fierce fighter and talented hunter, and she pushes herself to be better every day. though she does not like to be ordered around, and she likes to do things on her own accord, amberjaw would never turn down and order, and jumps at the chance to impress others.
she really only wants to be liked, when it comes down to it, but she's scared of the pressure, and the constant need to impress, and live up to expectations, and so on. everything that comes with being a friend, or having loved ones. it's scary, and it makes amberjaw into a very sad cat. brooding, yes. frustrated, yes. lonely, yes. not always, but on her worst days, when she can't stop worrying and nitpicking, she becomes weighed down by her negative traits, and forgets that she's not ugly, hated, or half as annoying as she imagines. she yearns for friendship and companionship and compliments and all the nice things that come from being around other cats, but fears being a disappointment too much to put herself out there, and gets trapped in an internal duel where half of her wishes to jump into the conversation with a joke and a smile, and the other half is telling her that her clanmates will think her idiotic if she does. she's working on overcoming this, though, because she tires of being so lonely, despite her lone-wolf disposition.
probably the thing that her clanmates notice most of all about her besides the fact that they rarely see her around is her keen sense of observation, and skill in both tracking in hunting. though she would never guess this as she's far too busy hiding from said clanmates, her skill when it comes to agility in the forest and outspoken tactics and so on, is well-known due to her driven passion to be impressive. her tendency to freak out about things put aside, this tabby lass is fairly intelligent, and has been known to understand strategies and prove her worth with both fighting and hunting.
KNOW WHAT'S TO COME
do not accept this, though we're alone we must fight for each breath
HISTORY amberjaw and her brother are the only two kits of their parents, who were called tornadoclaw and falconfeather. the damn, falconfeather, was a tough light brown tabby with white paws and striking golden eyes, who was quite intimidating to all, even her children. though she would never lay a claw on them, she was always horrible at being anything but hostile, and even to her kin she was a bit harsh, and never kind. it was hard for them to deal with, and since their father, a forboding tom with deep gray fur and dark green eyes like pits, thought kits were a petty waste of time best left to females to deal with, they never really got much parental support. still, when both young cats were apprenticed and their parents died together in a sudden, unexpected spat with rogues, both kits grieved heavily with the rest of their clan, as was expected of them. they got on fine though, keeping with one another for support.
however, their very different mentors caused a rift in their relationship. thought both amberpaw and her brother trained hard and strived to improve in every heartbeat of their days, amberpaw's mentor was a tom looked down upon in the clan as a weakling, since as a new warrior he had once run from a fight before their leader had called a retreat, and was named a coward and a traitor, blamed for losing the battle. amberpaw was given to him as a chance to prove himself once more as a worthwhile warrior, but he grew fed up with her anxiety problems and began to train her in a very detached manner, thinking she would mess up his chance to prove himself. of course, this only worsened her problems, and when she turned to her brother, whose opinions had been tainted by his rough-n-tough mentor, he told her she was being just as weak as her mentor. this harshness reminded her sharply of her mother, and became a wound which would never heal, but after a while her brother realized that she really was not doing well, and offered to help pass on his mentors lessons in his spare time. though both youngsters ended up exhausted from this system, both cats were also much happier, and grew a close bond again.
at last, they both earned their warrior names. once, when she was a very new warrior, amberjaw was faced with a one-on-one battle with a very hostile kittypet trespassing, but was, much to her surprise, the victor. a shadowclan patrol had come just in time to witness the kittypet running away, thus amberjaw's gaining her first bit of respect among her clanmates. since that day, very little of consequence has occured in her life, but she looks forward to another chance to prove herself.
THIS CHARACTER IS PLAYED BY LYNX